breakfast in bed (in my words lol )

Last night
This man ,
my man
you
came hungry , thirsty , mad , happy
lift me up sitting me at the sink...
as I open my legs you kiss me passionately
sliding your fingers through my hair
and pushing your body against mine
my heart couldn't find one rhythm
no coordination no time for breathing ...
I miss the moment when we got undressed
but I also don't remember ever being dressed for you
My needs , my desires are always clear to you
always naked , always calling , always blunt
Before I could ever feel you inside of me
you got down , pulled my body
and started licking my inner thighs
staring at each others eyes , no blinking
one of those moments when you feel you belong !
I was so ready to feel you , wet , moist , just ready
As I grab your head up , nibbling your neck , scratching your back
I felt you teasing me down there but you couldn't wait
we couldn't take...
you forced it
so mad , so angry , so rough
just the way I need it today
Oh what a wonderful pain , what a wonderful dance
You knew it was your time to explode
to get insane , to say my name
and so you did and once more I made you mine
yesterday , today , at this moment in time !
I knew I would wake this monster on you
after having you watching me play with myself...
If every women just knew how much power we have
hmmmmmmmm....
I am ready for breakfast in bed...
BRING IT ON !

SIZE DOES MATTER

Do I want bigger or smaller hips ? smaller
bigger or smaller house ? smaller (feels more like home )
bigger or smaller car ? A size that can carry the family
bigger or smaller plate of food ? smaller for me ...bigger for the ones that need
bigger or smaller purse ? both lol
bigger or smaller dog ? both again..
Bigger or smaller bed ? BIGGER so we can mess every single inch
bigger or smaller pleasure...? ARE YOU KIDDING ME??
I wanna scream your name !!
bigger or smaller boobs ? sexy size but manageable lol
bigger or smaller hands ? the size that can grab me the way I like it ...
bigger or smaller penis ? BIGGER
I can't operate with small tools ...just doesn't "fulfill" my needs...lol
Bigger or smaller ...smaller or bigger....
Size does matter so
HAVE A BIG HEART
BIG SMILE
DREAM BIG
and ask little...
WE ALREADY GOT THE BIGGEST GIFT
IT IS CALLED
LIFE
and we got for free !
Make somthing HUGE out of it !
A BIG KISS FROM ME !

The last day of your life

What if today was the last day of your life?
Have you experience all that you want ?
What would it be missing ?
Have you forgave the ones that tried to hurt you?
The ones that were jealous of you ?
Have you said you love to all the ones you do ?
Have you helped as much as you can ?
Did you get to see most places you wanted ?
Most importantly what would you do
that you can but haven't done yet because
you think you will live much longer ?
Do you have many or any regrets ?
I got myself thinking about all this
and I am planing on keep living like I do
Like there is no tomorrow !
Not taking life for grant and
(my favorite part of all ),
learn everyday something new !
Whatever I feel I still didn't do
or didn't get done it will happen soon
because that's just how I am.
I don't sit and wait for things to happen !
As for love...HE WILL FIND ME !
I rather don't hurry in this special subject
but when it happens
I wanna make sure he knows everyday
How much he means to me and that I love him !
Life is our biggest gift from God !
Lets remember to love ourselves ,
celebrate every minute , every second...
because WE CAN!
so it doesn't get any better than that
does it ?

SUNDAY (listening barry white - Rio de Janeiro )

Today I woke up feeling better
it has been a roller coaster this last year
so many ups and down
many decisions that got me confused...
but today SUNDAY in this
wonderful city called
RIO DE JANEIRO
I found some peace awhile
I was running in the sand and looking
to the sky and the mountains
and at the same moment staring at the sea...
Listening my favorite tunes and I gotta say this :
what a blessed life ! what a blessed day !
Now after a cold and refreshing shower
I have boo my son in my lap
as I write...
life doesn't get any better than that
does it ?
I guess when you find peace inside your heart
when you remember to count your blessing
(which should be a daily thing) ,
everything gets easier , lighter
Well that doesn't apply to body weight lol
I wish ! so life goes on and on...
Time for a nice breakfast and
to be great full for having a place to live
food to eat and for being healthy
to be able to welcome one more SUNDAY !
Have you all a wonderful day !

Letter to my best friend

Dad I barely can type
so much pain in my heart
in my chest...I just cry cry cry
for the last week it has been my picture
and I know you wouldn't want this
I have been trying to keep positive
and believe that everything will get better
It is just so lonely without your music
so sad without your words
so empty without your wisdom
How can I make this tears go away
How can I get down this wall
that I built so I feel safe again
I give it up , I am just human
I feel sick and tired
I have been strong for this whole year
Today finally everything hit me
There is gotta be light somewhere
I made the dark cold room my place to hide
my place to suffer and again cry
You are the most important person in my life
I am who I am because of you
You did a great jog by the way you raised me
freedom with responsibility as you used to say
I will never forget your advices
I am happy that I had lots of wonderful
moments by your side
and I thank God for giving me a dad
as my best friend
You are my inspiration to be a better person...
DAD
I love you more than words can say !
and I am missing you everyday...
ps: I am listening to your blues...thank you for all you've done for me and my sister !!

Safe place

Is there any place
where we can feel safe
where our fantasies are around the corner
a place where things taste better
where we experience our best kiss over and over
a place overlooking the sea
where the time stops
and we learn how to live NOW
A place where people respect each others and the earth
where love is never taken for grant
but cherished and nourished every single minute
where our jobs is just to help each other
as a good and honest human being
and make sure we also don't judge
A place where we can be ourselves
and don't need to pretend or
work on "acceptance" or trying to fit in
God loves all of us the same way
and that's the only one
we should try to "please"
not by looking or weighting in a certain way
but by BEING in a certain way
I believe we all come to this world
pure and in touch with our soul
and the older we get
it seems the further we go from it
We are not listening...
I believe this place it is inside of us
it is called HEART
How often do you listen to yours?

Dating sites ( SECOND PART)

I heard some stories about women
that post pictures 10 years younger...
what are they thinking ???
Would they tape all over their bodies
for the first date...??
This is ridiculous !
Or even worst pictures 20 pounds lighter...
than what to do ??
I wonder what they say
when they get to face
the guy on their first date
"sorry I am kind of bloated
I am on my period " ?!
so last night I had 2 burgers
3 french fries and the whole ice cream
and I woke up like this...
you are bloated alright !
And how the guy suppose to react ?!
"Oh hun I understand ,
lets meet when the 20 pounds of blood
leaves your body " !!!
HELLOOOOOOO !!
We know men are visual so
if you don't feel good the way you look ,
either don't post picture
and be ready for not much action (emails)
or get a make over before doing it
but please NO old pictures !!
For the other hand, remember
not all guys like skinny ones
embrace who you are !!
As for the guys...
the ones who take good care of themselves
can be a great catch or a pain in the ass
I feel that the ones who are all cut and hot
TEND ( I said tend) to be very superficial
and I must say , it turns me off
and will not last more than 3 emails...
or two chats with me.
The regular looking guys
in my experience are more
in touch with things that really matters in life !
Beauty will fade for all of us !
We gotta have more than that !
we gotta be more than that !
Successful men that go for what they want
and make thing happen when they want
and who are not afraid of living to the fullest
THEY TURN ME ON !
I have a similar personality
risk taker , romantic and follow my intuition.
I would do anything or go anywhere
if I feel it can be THE ONE ...!
Today make sure you say what you want
and DO WHAT YOU SAY...
You might be surprise with the outcome...


TO BE CONTINUED...

Dating sites ( FIRST PART)

Oh man this is a fun subject
Let me start by saying ,
I am not implying that women
don't do things like the ones I will
talk about now...
But I am writing as a woman
so it will be my tips for the guys !
A lot of them are so clueless
It makes me wonder from which planet
they come from...
what's up with that attitude saying :
"Have no baggage please"
Are you a man over 30 ?
and you consider yourself
with no baggage ??
I find this very weird already !
At a certain point of our life
we carry that , sometimes big
sometimes medium and
some smart people small ones.
Let's face it , we all had some
drama in our life ,
it might be created by us ,
by others or both .
what we learn from it
makes difference on the size
of the baggage we carry .
Second thing people like to
post about themselves
I am 40 but look like 18 ...
( turns me off right away )
ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME ???
If I wanted an 18 I wouldn't be checking out your profile !!
Didn't you post any recent pictures
that should go without saying it
are you that immature and insecure ?
Talking about pictures....
Don't write me saying
I don't take much pictures
HELLO THIS IS A DATING SITE ONLINE
Get a camera a take some shots
if this is a lot for you to do
then don't waste my time
I am not interested !
Also you guys want us to have
recent pictures (fair enough)
but then you post pictures
of Paris , house , cars
WAKE UP I WILL NOT FUCK YOUR CAR!
I wanna see YOU !
A closer head shot no sunglasses,
body shot in jeans or something like that
no fuzzy ones from miles away...
For the ones without pictures alone ,
if you wanna post pictures around people
grab a taxi driver , a kid
family members or animals
but never ever other hot chics
(stripper looks)
also the ones that just came out of high school
Don't get me wrong I dig hot chics
but if I am looking for the man of my life
or a simple boyfriend to start with
I don't think you would be my pick
posting those kind of pictures !
I wonder what makes you
think that it will drag me to you
Would you appreciate
if it was the other way around ?
I didn't think so ! So get a gripe !
If you are ONLY looking for fun
than go for it ! Post your face between
some hot twins( if you know what I mean)
and gold diggers will fill your inbox !
Way to go playboy ! Enjoy it !
Now the "rich" ones that
can't write you an email and
only wink at you because
they are not members...
either you are not serious about it
or you are a broke ass so
spare me to read that you
are successful and own your home
I am not buying it !
Profiles very short
no more than 20 words
and very incomplete...
Again HELLO this is internet
as you , we wanna know as much
as we can about you
so we decide if there is a
potential date there or not !
Then I save the best for last
this is the worst for me
male , 52 years old searching
for female from 25 to 48...
for example...
So are you telling me that
you would date your daughter's
best friend...creepy !!!
You look desperate to me
and lost so I click
NEXT !
You all have a wonderful
time , good luck
and remember to be REAL
We appreciate that !

2010

I have been thinking , projecting
about 2010 , the year that I am calling
the beginning of the rest of my life
and why is that ?
Because I can just
smell that will make
my dream come through
My heart will melt again
I will feel vulnerable and hopeless
my legs will get weak
I will not hesitate
not wait or overthink
I will not be scared or second guess
my body language will
give it up what I want
I will be all that you want me to be
I will dance for you , strip for you
take you to a places that you never been before
and when I am done , you will be asking for more
Once we look into each other's eyes
it will be it !!!
we will make passionate love
we will get addicted and happy
we will want to compromise
we will desire to dive deep
we will always communicate
we will never go to bed mad at each other
we will walk hand by hand
we will hear our hearts beating together
same rhythm , all in sync
we will undress each others fears
and once we get naked and free
we will experience the best feeling ever
and we will celebrate life forever
because we will wanna say I do
we know true love is hard to find
and this is what we have.
Time to leave the past behind !
2010 will bring me to YOU as well
get your guard down and
let your soul succumb the spell
For now have patience
smell this feeling
and just know the next chapter
we will write together ...

TO BE CONTINUED....

I don't own you...I LOVE YOU !

We latin people tend to be jealous

or better possessive

we are always trying to

control our men (or women)

This is soooo waste of time and energy

so stoneage mentality

if someone wants to cheat on you

it takes only 5 minutes away to kiss

10 , 20 for a quicky

men and women will do whatever

they want regardless

I decided that I am not

in this world to own anyone

I wanna love someone not own !

This doesn't even sound right

well maybe during sex..hehe

let's face it ..

it is hot when someone say :

you are all mine !

Part of our dreamy personality

loves that and soap opera lol

Back to reality

people have to go to bed (to sleep this time lol)

and have a good night sleep

knowing that they were

honest to their mate.

It shouldn't be a problem

if you really love and respect

your partner and best friend

I believe in Karma so should you...

let people live the way they feel it is right

the only thing we really OWN

it is our own body and an option

to be a descent human being

that understands how important

it is this thing called FEELINGS

Don't give to just anyone

make sure it goes to someone

who will protect that

not play with that...

I only want one good man

that's all it takes to make me happy

Jeaousy takes a lot from us !

Invest in other feelings that will

make you feel much better

like respect , admiration and love !

Oh and before I forget

If you know what you are about

love and respect yourself

it should be easy to trust

and if someone doesn't appreciate you enough

to be faithful than it is not worth your time or energy

move on...YOU DESERVE THE REAL DEAL !

Rainy day

Rainy day and I am thinking of you
picturing things you would do to me
undress my ghost
pull my hair
lick every inch of my mouth
wrap me around your arms
that's what I am talking about !

Rainy day I am thinking of you
desiring your smell
my nails craving your back
when I feel you deep inside of me
I say heaven it is where I am at !

Rainy day and I am thinking of you
as I play with myself
making it all hot and wet
that's when you say
the more you want the more you get

Rainy day I am still thinking of you
after the eruption of my body
my heart is beating fast
not going anywhere
I wanna make it last

The rain stops the moment
I fall asleep
I only think of you
my dream is really deep
Mix of pleasure
with a slice of pain
please keep me awake
I am addicted to that rain

For the millionaires out there...

I got to meet some sucessfull people
we could call them millionaires
men looking for love
missing the woman of their dreams
the last one bla bla bla
but as I talked to them about it
I came to realize that
they are not ready because
they don't have the time
to have a real woman
Why do I know that ?
Because I am one of them
A real woman is demanding
of appreciation because
she brings everything or at least
a lot of things you have been
searching for...desiring...
A real woman will take care
of her man because
she loves him and he treats her
as he should
Guys keep it in mind
the more we feel appreciated
the hornier we get
at least works for me
is that so hard to get ?
I am not saying you shouldn't work
I am saying you should work TOO
Stop worrying about being right
focus in being happy
and I have two last questions
for the super busy guys
Does your work walk
around naked in the house
and get you off as much
as you both want?
Does your work
puts a smile on your face
sending you hot text messages
during the day
and naked pictures
to your cel ?
I didn't think so
So get your priorities
straight before you
come approach me

Some thought on sex

My last posting was about people being real
saying what they feel like
and asking what they want
the same goes for the bedroom part
C'mon ladies FAKE ORGASM
Are you kidding me ?????
It is almost 2011
we should be able to
tell them how we like it
trust me they love to see
you scream and I mean
SCREAMMMM !!
As for the guys
A real one in my opinion
will please and satisfy his woman
before he thinks about his other head
I am talking about when you guys are
on the first half ...
after that it is game on
whatever makes you both happy
should strike..should roll
Actually a real man get turn on
by watching his woman explode
and the contractions of her body
c"mon man that's priceless and
better yet,,,YOU DID IT !
Orgasm is one beautiful
and powerful thing
and we all should have it
many times...
so if you are a man
give it before you have it
if you are a woman
have it before you cheat
simple as that !
relationship
sex
it is all about
communication...

Playing Games

Why most people have the need to play games
why can't they just mean what they say
for example why when they will meet
someone for the first time as in a date,
they suddenly hate the black (their favorite color)
because the other one mentioned he (she) loves blue
what's wrong with this people ??
Why can't they just stick with black
That's when all start wrong
They start with little lies about themselves
and because they are desperate to make
it work they keep adding stupid lies like that
and big ones follow in the process
WHAT A SHAME!
and then they wonder why it went sour ?!
WAKE UP PEOPLE !!!
You can't get something real
if you don't present the truth right away
The other one must embrace your good and bad
if they wanna be with you
there is no such a thing as perfection !!
(Thank God)
There is nothing more exciting
and stimulating than the process
of learning and trying to become a better person
and have someone by your side
who really understands what commitment means
and is up to the roller coaster of life itself
IT IS PRICELESS !
I am far from perfect and
I want someone in my life who does understand
that it takes two REAL PEOPLE
to conquer REAL LOVE !
We can grow old with our best friend
if we live a lie...
It will get you lonely and faking...
so go ahead and tell it like it is !
BE YOURSELF...
BE WHO YOU WANNA BE...

Necessary changes

I will start this one asking you
what are you doing to be where
you wanna be in your life ?
If you wanna change something
You need to change your actions
or the way you act at least
if you keep repeating everything
the same way you have been doing it
nothing will change
You look the way you look
have relationships the way you have
because you acted in a certain way
if you keep doing it that way,
nothing will change in your life
Send your energy to all the things
that can get you where you want
Keep the focus
because there will be a lot
of distractions in your way
and most of the time
they will tempt you
they come in disguise as a good thing
Have on the back of your mind
a picture of yourself in the future
happy and satisfied
so you don't fall into things like that
and never forget to be a good human being
I am coming back from a distraction
and to realize that this is what it was
made me come back stronger
and with a lot of determination
to love myself even more and
wait for real love to find me
by then I will be ready and
will have the future
I see myself in....
what about you ?

Relationship

I was thinking with myself about
how unsatisfied we are
if we are dating we are
wishing we weren't
if we are alone
we want to fall in love
I am learning a lot about
myself just for being single
longer than anytime before in my life
and I must admit
it feels really good at times
to don't have to deal
with some issues that
only relationship brings
BUT
there will be always
moments when I wish
you were here with me
I am not sure
who you are and where
are you coming from
color of your hair
age or profession
I just know that
I don't believe
we born to die alone
I think we all should
find our best friend
sometime in our life
to grow old together.
There is nothing more
beautiful to me than
an old couple walking
hand by hand
It fascinates me and
makes me dream about
having something like that too
So my thoughts for today are
protect and embrace your
relationship ,
don't give up easily
Love is worth fighting for
but before that , make
sure you are ready
to meet half way
and to do your part .
Relationship it is
a wonderful thing
but it is hard work too !
As for myself ,
I am ready for this next
chapter of my life
and I will fall for you
in New York City...
wherever there is...
The dream is mine
I can have it anywhere
Just believe in it
and make sure
you love yourself first
and that you really
want this ride
hopefully the last one
hand by hand...

This is it...

I am not sure how to start this one
so many things in my mind
after watching this is it with Michael Jackson
I will not comment as a fan because
it would take pages of this blog
There are so many artist out there
that didn't accomplished a third
of what MJ did and
they walk and talk and act like
we own them something
like the whole world should
bend when facing them
Fuck that !
Michael was so talented
and as I call him the whole movie
a real monster,the man knows all
and made sure things came out the
way he planned for the concert
but what I was surprised about
was how humble he was
always using this words with the crew
WITH MUCH LOVE or L .O. V. E
whenever he wanted something to be done
or changed for his pieces .
I got to think that someone
like him really come in this earth
with a mission ...
an intense one and
maybe because of that , short...
He is in heaven where he belongs
and we people are in hell
because we dont take
care of the earth or
each other as we should.
MJ is in my opinion
the only artist that was for so long
without recording any new hits
that could pull off a concert like that
and make us dance and love
his old songs all over again
because they are like him
endless , timeless and
ahead of the time
just like he was always
watch this is it and
you will know why he is
the king of pop ...
Thank you MJ and RIP